突然

今天会突然想去找你

可是你走了

为什么每次想遇你却遇不到，不想碰到却碰个正面

却让我遇到个很久不见的朋友，已经想找他很久

他是我之前的屋友，时常一起打机，正所谓不打不相识

不知，好像最近看他在FB留言带有点情绪病，和我差不多

他还是没变，但希望他能及格上DEGREE

下星期日我应该抽些时间找下他

反正那天我也不想孤独一个人过

知道你这一切你不想知道就算知道也假装不知道

希望你会知道你会行动

越快到那天越不想那天的到来

在我心目中你始终如此重要

If I am a scientist

Tomorrow mid-term,I still at here writing my blog.

If I am a scientist,I will invent a machine that can delete our memory which we do not want.

Many people think have talent in memorize things is a advantage.Good in memorize things actually is not a benefit for me.

The painful memory that I want clear from my mind is impossible.

I invent the machine hope can delete our unwanted memory and leave a sweet memory is the good things.

I am very tired when my mind will suddenly flash back all this memory to me.

Have this machine I and you can delete all unhappy moment,just left the sweet moment between us.

But I am not scientist.I am not clever in invention.

导演

最近，给我找到一个导演的部落格。

导演需要很有想法，在紧要关头又能解决问题。

这位导演在人手不足坚持要拍完整部ＭＶ出来，这部ＭＶ将在几天后正式播放，我蛮期待他的新作品。

因为对自己有要求的人绝对能把要的东西做得很好，虽然不是完美。

其实，ＭＶ注重在把美丽的画面呈现出来，把故事内容大概透露出来，把主角的感情搬出来，这实是不易的事情。

我有想去尝试跟导演组学些东西，想自己拍出一个带出信息的短片。

至于歌我一直都有研究，要把成熟带进歌的动脉，让整首歌不乏味。唱法也一样，要去看不同的人演艺同一首歌，这样就能看到不同的风格，从而把自己的风格带入歌里。

而且各种语言的歌需要唱法也不同。

Today's presentation

I really not satisfy of my presentation.

Many lagging while I am present my part.

I don't want to find any reason for my fault in presentation.

I just want to prove I can improve more in next presentation.

If today presentation have 10marks,I only give myself 3 marks.

I want to reduce in lagging.

I have much high expect in my presentation.

朱浩仁和可晴

其实，我一直留意本地创作。

目前，我留意到这两位歌手，浩仁和可晴。

浩仁，别看他舞蹈厉害，他创作也很棒。

《爱退潮》唱得很深情，第二张专辑完全是他的概念，舞蹈自己编排，歌曲自己创作。其实，市场上需要一个能跳能唱的，跳舞时让人惊讶，唱歌时让人掉泪，这他完全俱备。

送上一支他的MV


这是有舞步的


可晴，17岁就能出专辑，也许我很羡慕，她不是唱儿歌，而是看情歌。不错，不可爱，我喜欢。17岁就有很好运，换了造型就有机会代言，这全是可遇不可求。

也一样她的MV,不可爱

无法平复

至到现在，我还是无法平复自己的情绪。

我是什么噢？

有时候想自己一人

有时候在不适当的时候眼泪很想掉下来

有时候真的不想说话一句也不想说

今天无意碰到你我们擦肩而过似乎不认识对方

我的情绪开始糟糕，假装不在意，掩饰自己没事，这都是骗自己。

Pasar malam 没想到你会那么早去，我已经选择早去，还是会碰到你。

我一直对自己发脾气，拿错东西都可以自己骂自己。

很讨厌自己

让我好好静下来，好好的躲着自己但我不想让现在的她知道。

My Degree Assignment

Some of the Assignment I have do my part only but I don't know the progress of the assignment.

When I want to do another part, I don't know how much that I want to do.

I ask is just want to confirm something about the part of mine.

I not finding you for help.

I want prove I am more potential than others. But I want need what I doing now.

Sometimes, I search for information but I am doing what now.

I confusing here and struggle hard for understand it.

The progress I not much involved.

I want say out something: I not need your help, I just want confirm something and understand my part well.

I not at here try to shoot someone.

Black Day of UTAR

Today is the black day of UTAR.

How I will say like this?Actually is many students wear black shirt to university today.

They want to show their unsatisfaction to the parking in East Gate need to pay.

Although I no class today,I also go search for a satistics.

Among 10 person that will be 7 person are wearing black to university.

First time see a lecture hall have many wearing black shirt students.

In fact, I hope can see a whole lecture hall or cafeteria that are full of black except workers there.

A busy week

Having mid-term every saturday.

Need pass up Financial Operations Institution Assignment this friday but not yet finish.

A presentation this thrusday.

Have a little bit scare because already about two semester no involve in presentation.

A mid-term test this saturday.

The topic cover is very tough and I not yet finish study it.

Many things to worry and many things want to do.

Haiz...

我知道

我知道

不用你提醒

我不是偶像派

我是丑

我认

难道丑不能整理头发 不能玩头发

那全部丑要剪光头

我爱玩头发

因为我珍惜我的头发因为我曾光头过

你不明白的

我对我样貌很满意无须整容

整容只会把自己父母遗转都丢掉

这是不尊敬父母

最多只是削簿面和隆鼻

但我要实力上赢偶像派

我知道

一切

自从我不敢再爱了

我不是偶像派

A singing competition

Congratulation for my friends,Kwan Hooi.

He get three award in the singing competition in Ktar.

First,3rd prize.

Second,the most beautiful attire.

Third,the best performers(最佳台风奖）

I long time no see our ex-Poi Lam students take part in singing competition.

Everyone participate just want show the talent and go for his/her dream.

I hope one day can perform at a same competition.

I waiting this day come.

Because I already learn many from my national service friends and my ex-poi lam friends.

I will not like before,voices more stronger than before after training many.

Share this video with you all,my friends Kwan Hoooi singing competition.

Kwan Hooi Singing Competition

Remember to watch,he really good in raising the condition of audience.

chatbox

I already delete the chatbox from my blog.

This because someone imitate me write nonsense things at there like I so much confident.

I beh tahan liao..I really want delete it.

Have anythings please comment at my blog.

I have a test later.

Add oil for all my friends and myself.

Bye.

寂寞生日快来临

今天，我的感情掩饰的很好，在朋友面前笑得出。

我一直处于连我自己也感到复杂的心情：伤心，忧虑，心酸。

你终于恨我了，可是我竟然开始后悔，想挽回。

但已无法挽回了，我们现在见面都不知该怎样了？

其实，好几次是我先离开，为什么当时把我叫回来，要发信息找我挽留我甚至CALL我，现在又要我走，你好残忍。

你现在应该恨不得我死吧。

过多两三个星期，我生日来了。之前，我们都有提过下，至少你记得。可是，现在你不会和我庆祝的咯！

我还记得上一年我生日，你在国民服务营，那时是星期六，你有电话在身。我那时却因某事不睬你，你坚决发了信息给我虽然我没回你。那天晚上，国民服务营传来很多H1N1的病菌。我叫我朋友问候你，你知是我叫他代我问候的。你故意说你得了H1N1，骗我让我紧张快点发信息给你。

当我知道你得了H1N1,我跑出外面，对天说我不曾生日许过愿因为我不要求多，这次我许愿你一定要没病没痛从国民服务营平安回来。怎知你才发了少少烧而已，但我已很担心，你在那儿整天都失声的。

还有这段回忆你失声的时候，不能通电话。你还记得我怎样教你了吗？我讲话，你只须“易，哦，啊”来回复我。你那时还笑得很开心。

我们以前有很多快乐的回忆，不知你还记得吗？我却不曾忘过，可能你连我刚写的事你都忘了。我们每一刻都记得清清楚楚。可是，你一回来就对我很冷淡了。至到现在我们快乐的回忆愈来愈少。

这一年的生日我应该很孤单很孤寂的过。没有人会跟我庆祝。我写这些回忆都几度啃咽哭了。

自残

我在干吗？自残吗？

不是啦！弄伤而已，不必大惊小怪。

最近，很多人讲我心事重重的，其实是吗？

我也不知，连朋友讲我的照片也在EMO着。

哈哈，我能做到以上这几点啊？

其实，我没有想太多。

我很多事都以平常心看待，虽然最近很情绪化。

我做很多事都很冷静认真想过才行动。

这一句我思虑才写的爱情优美句“肯为爱付出，不介意回报，可是每次都为她而流泪，默默付出抱着回忆哭也许是我的性格，心一直留给她，怡然爱着她。。”

这句是我看过的一篇故事而想出来的。

为何一些无必要的碰撞而要我删除这句。这句意义很重要，讲述一个人的痴心。删除了它等于把我的灵魂拿走。

我写的歌很多概念来自这句。

填词重要在写词方面的成熟，这句却是一个过程让我想的更成熟写的更成熟。

删除了它等于自残着我自己。

遗忘3

遗忘

恨

我是肯定恨不了你的。

既然这样，让你恨我更好。

我能更彻底离开你的影子，与你无任何关系。

恨，也许有时是好事。这时候用得真适合。

我将面对全新的自己，即使我过一人生活也好。

遗忘2

终于写完这首歌了。。

你身边总是很多朋友
每天都有忙不完的节目
几时才会轮到我上场
这机会是很渺茫
你总是对我很不耐烦
转头又对朋友玩笑起来
为何你总忽略我感受
我实在很难过

（CHORUS）
你把我遗忘
遗忘我的存在
我就像是空气
你漠视我的出现
你给了我
很多痛苦
我唯有躲着一个人哭

心里预感你是对的人
每次想靠近你多一些
可是你只会对我冷酷
该做什么令你改观
你找我总在困难时
愿意帮你解决困难
转过头不理我和朋友
到底我算什么

（CHORUS）
你把我遗忘
遗忘我的存在
我就像是空气
你漠视我的出现
你给了我
很多痛苦

每次看你和别人合照
我总是怨为何不到我
原来我算错你是属于我的

（CHORUS）
你把我遗忘
遗忘我的存在
我就像是空气
你漠视我的出现
你给了我
很多痛苦
我唯有躲着一个人哭
不甘愿再面对爱~~

完成了。。

遗忘

这是我现在最想写出来的歌名。每首歌都有它的故事。

讲述长得高高的人在外表上很容易被人发觉。但事实并非如此。他总是被人遗忘他的存在，他的出现等于没出现。他永远得不到她的眼光的存在，只在她有需要他帮忙才找上他。他的心情就像被遗忘，很想说为什么你总忘了我。难道他就是空气吗？他问着自己，很沮丧地问着自己，过后慢慢走进他自己一个人的世界，宅男的生活，谁都不想见。

爱

爱情出现在人的快乐与伤悲的一线之差。

最近，不只看到我爱情受挫，很多身边的朋友也看到。

遇到这些遭遇我们不只无法好好处理，甚至做出失去理智的事。

难道人要遇到考验才会珍惜的吗？难道我们不会珍惜吗？那些花心罗卜汉又可以那么自在享受爱情。

有时候，上着课脑袋还会闪出你的样子，一想到你就马上要逼自己去想其他东西，其实还满痛苦的。

但有谁会知道？



Sorry for my rude because suddenly scold my friends although he is no fault.I still cannot control my emotion well,but I will try.Please give me some time.

Recently

Recently,someone always comment in my blog and tell me stop the blog.

I write the blog is want to express my feelings.

If u don't like,u can don't want see my blog.

And remind you again,don't use my name leave comment in my blog.

I sure I know u,just u don't show off ur identity only.

I hate u say anything also no think properly,maybe should say u helping someone scolding me only.

I do anything is no need explain to anyone.

I choose to leave someone is my decision although I have many good and bad feedback.

Please respect to my decision.I need time for recovery.I even in facebook already block the person.

This is my choice.I choose want like that.I will not regret forever.

And sure will not regret.Because her heart will not ever have the place for me.

Although I struggle for how hard as I can.

She lie many time already cause my heart broken although she cant hear.

This is my first time love a person very deeply.

Why suddenly talk about her?Haiz...

FT Birthday~~

Yesterday,it is Fang Terng's birthday.We make a surprise for him.

I think it is quite surprise for him after he bath and we make noises in his room.

Birthday Video

We make a video for him that combine with sex action video.

Finally,I beh tahan laugh until cant stop.

But the video really yuck....

Coz we prove we are truth friends forever and ever.

This fact is never been change although the time is running in second and second.

We must keep on contact with each other forever.

It also let forget what sad things that I suffer.

放心

之前发生一些事情在我身上让很多人担心了。

放心，对不起我没事。也谢谢阿嫂和我谈了些，让我舒服些，不然我不知我现在在哪里？

我承认爱情是盲目的，它让我做了很多不理智和错的决定，我现在需要的是冷静的思维。

我以后都会戴着一枚戒指，无时无刻提醒着我不要再跌进爱情的陷阱，很怕一进去就很难拔回，真的很痛苦。



也许我怕爱情的失败
也许我不会再盼望爱情的出现
也许爱情我不需要
也许我宁愿过我一人生活
也许我注定这生没有爱情

其实，我好像察觉我的命不剩很多。

今天，参加长途跑步比赛，跑到半程时，很突然地，我的心脏痛了。我丝毫跑不动了，想放弃跟STJOHN的服务员带我去医院。

但我坚持走下去，走到喝水站，喝了几杯水，心也慢慢缓服起来。结果，我也继续跑到终点。我不敢跟父母说，我怕他们担心。

如果真的是心脏出了问题，我不知我还能撑多久？还有多少年我能活下来？

第100个

写下写下，已来到第一百个了。

第一百个对我来说没什么开心，因为我还没找到属于我的爱情，而我跟你再度冷战下来。我这次想送这首歌给你《直到你不找我》。



我要从你的世界中消失，不再出现。我因为你而减少上FACEBOOK的时间，不想再看到你在我面前出现，要彻底忘掉你。你不要再叫我回头，因为我真的受不到下一次的刺激。

总之，我的摩托你是我载的第一个乘客就足够了。

我甚至时常关掉电话不想你找我。你是我一生最爱的。要忘记你很难，所以要恨下心肠，做出不理智的事。

没想到，你恨恨地骂了我，隔了一天，又找我。我已关了手机，打开又见到你的信息。你要我帮你去完成些事情。为什么是我？你吃喝玩乐没一次是预我林汶锋，到了需要帮忙却找上我。

你那些朋友呢？死去哪里？只有在你要玩乐就出现，为何不找他们？你不是很喜欢跟他们一起的吗？难道他们无能吗？我要讲多一次我不是聪明的，我不是以前的林汶锋，现在是个感情深触的我。

我是遵守我的承诺才会帮你的。《无论你在哪里，你只需要我的帮忙，我一定会出现，尽管我很忙》这就是我对你的诺言。

你的朋友都看我不顺眼，你跟着就对我嫌三嫌四。我很想问你，有几个像我一样，你叫我做什么，我就点头。不知你留意到这点，那时你在做着你的SLIDE SHOW，我刚进来，你就叫我关窗帘，明明你是靠近窗帘的。你要带你的CHOCOLATE做PRESENTATION请别人吃，那价钱你撕下来，你是丢垃圾桶还是给我，你是给了我。我就好像你的男佣，我不介意。

但你一值的种种行为我受够了，你一值把我当成利用品吧了，用的着我才用我，但我愚笨我甘愿。你的吃喝玩乐没有我，你根本无视我的。我的付出不值一屑，也受到你的否定。

我不再出现在你面前，不幽默但体贴关心你的林汶锋消失了，只剩下冷淡的我。

我写着写着也想哭了，心情很糟透。

Bad luck this few day

This few day I am very bad luck.

Gamble lose...haiz...Spain is stronger than Holland but it cant win at 90minutes.Cause me lose RM10,luckily I no deal with more money.

The love problem always occur in my life.This time,I choose to change my timetable for not meet her anymore.At 8pm night if no class,I choose to sleep until 3am wake up.Then I start eat,study and doing my assignment.

When u sleep,I awake.When I sleep,you awake.I not sure I can suitable for this timetable.But I will try hard.By doing so,I can forget you.And you will missing in my life or I missing in your life.

At the beginning,I or you even one study in Utar is a fault.If say like that,I think I not choose study Utar better.This is because you will say the problem is occur on me is not you.

If no the beginning,we not meet another,we will not close each other.I only can say sorry to you to make your life appear a person.But this person will leave will disappear will not exist anymore in your front.You go right,I go left.You go up,I go down.

IQ/EQ

我无论IQ或EQ都很低。

为什么我会这样讲呢？

IQ在每个人身上都不会是100分，除非是聪明人。我有时连朋友讲什么都领悟错了，我的IQ应该连50分都不到。我的智商原来那么低等。

EQ是人能适时控制自己的情绪 ，我还以为我的EQ很高，我本来不喜欢恨别人，和生气别人。其实，我不是。现在的我有时会骂朋友，其实不是真骂。我处理我的EQ很差，昨晚可因某些事想法歪了，崩溃了，决定自己在到处被雨淋，最后坐在草场上任雨淋醒自己，我大概淋了整整半个小时，有人看到我也嘲笑我了。淋完还不确定自己是否清醒。只知道淋雨哭着是没人察觉到的。我的EQ原来是0。

我做人真失败，平时很会思维分析的我都会。。。

今天

很少我会写一天的东西。

今天有摩托驾去学校，方腾竟然问我开心吗？我心里只会答还不是一样，只不过摩托的驾驶盘在我手而已，而不是人家载吧了。

我这次考试总算不是开头差了呱。我这次总算有拼了命去了，应该不会太差不会太厉害。我要打破朋友讲我的你只会背东西吧了。

心情从早上到晚上，高潮跌到底潮，晚上寂寞的悲伤来了。我不敢一个人在新城市吃晚餐，我唯有乘着摩托到旧街场自己一人吃晚餐。

最不喜欢寂寞的感觉，可是你却偏偏跟着我。

无端端，感觉自己好孤独，好悲伤，好像没有任何一个朋友。朋友里的圈子却又不敢踏入。

情绪很糟，很低弱，根本不像以前的我。情绪为什么我一直控制不好，我该怎样？？？

傻，笨，愚，蠢，

都不知自己干吗的？总是那么傻那么苯就只是为了你。

明天有考试都还要想着你，烦。

男子不是很厉害找新欢的吗？很厉害忘了一个，就去找另一个。

为什么我不能？想法很乱，你讲没有，但在你一举一动却让我感觉到你有。

我还在那么傻为什么？没有人可救得了我，好痛苦。

有过多少快乐就有多少痛。

幸好我明天考试还应付得来。

傻，笨，愚，蠢，

这四个字很适合我。

林汶锋在爱情永远是输家，输得彻彻底底，无法回头。

World Cup 2010 want come to a end

Many strong team already eliminated in the World Cup qualifying and back to their own country.

France,Italy,England,Portugal,Brazil and Argentina already lose early.

Germany only have the chance to get the 3rd trophy.

France does not have the team spirit at all.Striker already old and not in condition.Italy coach choose many old and experienced player and not in condition.England striker do not have support from the midfielder at all,defender not in perfect form at all.Portugal striker is the worst,C.Ronaldo does not perform well every match and coach not good in use a good strategy.Brazil strikers do not have the luck to goal and the Melo is the worst player in the field,he cause the Brazil lose to Netherlands.At the beginning,Argentina is very strong because opponent team is not a strong team at all.When fight with Germany,Argentina face the defensive problem.Germany in the semi final is because of lacking Muller in the midfielder.He had to ban one match after collect two yellow card in five matches.Lack of Muller cause Germany do not have creative attack and goal.

Spain do well in the passing process,create many beautiful attack in 2nd half.Spain have the big opportunity to get champion.Netherlands,I only can say is lucky.After defeated Brazil in quarter final,Its opponent in Semi final is not very strong.If Netherlands want win in the final,Robben and Sneijder must match very well,Van Persie need get back his best performance to goal.

庆祝我离开

我选择离开余合咯！要专心读书。

上星期，我破列有得最迟出街咯！哈哈！以后要晚出街可用这理由骗父母咯！

我挺不好意思，要你们请我吃东西，平时你们有节目，我都没和你们一起出。

以后，有机会让我请你们吃一餐吧！哈哈！

和你们一起吃火窝，真开心，一起谈天，一起拍照，一起笑，我挺感动，可是我没哭。

也许我只会对爱情哭而已。哈哈！！！谢谢你们。好开心，永远保持联络。

3 Things following me

This time,I bring 3 things following me.This 3 things can say important in my life and bring a meaning to me.

The 1st one is lucky star in the container.It is my first time I receive present in my birthday in my Form 2 life.Most important is she DIY making and give me.Before that,I stupid and do not know how to make the star myself.Now,I know.But I did not fill it full.The star also reduce many already because my little brother take a little bit to play when I not at home.

This new semester,I change a new room.
The 2nd one is the teddy bear.Maybe you all think I am still like child.Actually,it represent my hard work and the good result in my PMR.This is my tuition teacher reward me.It will remind me to struggle hard in my study when I am lazy when I want to give up.


The 3rd one is a musical box.This one actually is I buy for someone in Valentine Day.At last,I no give to her. Until my birthday,I just give myself as my gift.The melody it release will let me calm down.It is very useful when I am angry,sad and emoing.The musical box has written "Love is Blind".Now I feel Love is Blind.Love can make us do something crazy,stupid and maybe is useless.Finally,"Happy to U."

This 3 things very helpful in my life.

持续

持续。。

待在你身边，对你我始终如一，无法放开你。

爱你大概有年半了。。

挺痴心的，

你说你决定要专心念书，我选择等待。

做你身边对你最好的人，在你伤心安慰你，在你遇到困难帮助你，在你要人叫你起身上课叫你起身，我甘愿。

但是不知道你心里有没有其他人？我做得是否值得呢？

做你身边最像你的男朋友但事实上不是。。

我爱的人已不是我爱人
她心里每一寸都属于别人的